Thread:The Pop Cult Gamer/@comment-24669562-20190921231340/@comment-24669562-20191108064640

I know and hear what you mean. That's what happened with me and YouTube, which I still have zero interest in going back to, among other websites.

And I know what depression is like. It sucks! You cannot enjoy life, feel hopeless, loss of interests, don't want to get out of bed or change your routine, at least not too much, even don't want to live anymore (mind you, those are my personal experiences with depression, I don't know what yours are but you tell if you're comfortable.)

But I hated the way my life was going so much or wasn't happy and decided to make drastic changes, including quitting visiting YouTube and a few other websites, cutting ties with the people I met on those sites (I still don't want to see or talk to them although most of them didn't do me wrong,) stopped watching certain cartoons or certain episodes of cartoons (including the first half of Arthur Season 11, even that train episode) and other TV shows. I could go on but I won't. I basically just have traumatic times in my life that I don't want to revisit or recreate and i don't want to see people, places, or things that remind me of those times or, and I know it sounds ridiculous, it'll trigger unwanted feelings and "ruin" other things I see or do, places I go, or people I see, including unrelated things, even feel like my day is ruined and want the next day to come so I can "start over!" Probably my O.C.D., but it's also P.T.S.D. Yep, I'm mentally messed up, only God can cure me!

I don't know if you go through anything similar. It's very hard to talk about and I don't like talking too much about this but want others to understand me and why I do or don't do certain things.