Thread:Arthur Read fan/@comment-24669562-20191019181533

Hi Arthur Read Fan.

I don't want to bother you but please let me explain. I should stay away from you but I feel like you and I need to talk directly to each other.

I'm sorry again for harassing you and making you feel uncomfortable, that was so not my intent, it really wasn't, but I guess I did and for that I'm really sorry.

I know this is no excuse and you probably already know this about me but I have autism, but the high functioning kind. But what you might not have known about me is I like to express myself, but I have a lot of trouble expressing myself, I'm just not good at it, it's a problem I've had for years, and probably always will. And what I say may not translate well with other people, they may take it differently than I intended. And I don't see things, at least not everything, the way others do, and not just because I don't want to, but I just cannot!

And I have trouble dealing with other people, I'm socially awkward, sometimes asocial, and shy around others, heck I get uncomfortable around others myself!

I didn't mean to be too personal, I was just relating experiences, and a lot of times people don't have problems with my comments... or they do they just don't tell me or talk about it where they hope I don't see it, although some do deal directly with me about what I do. And I didn't think there was anything wrong with it, although I admit I got carried away and I do tend to write long detailed comments.

I admit I'm weird, boring, annoying, and obnoxious, but I don't mean to upset or annoy anyone, and again, I'm not good at expressing myself. For all I know I'm probably just making myself a bigger idiot and making myself look/sound/seem worse than I already have. What I mean is I'm trying to make amends and trying to do right but it's probably just gonna be taken as me doing wrong and making things worse on myself. I cannot control what others think and how others feel.

Please try to understand me, I don't like being misunderstood and at times I feel like I am misunderstood. And I want to understand you too and I want to respect you, I DON'T want to make you uncomfortable and I don't want you to be scared of me or annoyed by me, it makes me feel bad. Like Gary Coleman said about himself, I'm a troubled person and I have low self esteem.

We don't have to be friends, I actually prefer not to be friends with anyone, but I want us to at least get along with each other, respect each other, and to try to understand each other, that's all I ask.

I do hope this is not that Arthur-Sue Ellen situation like it was in "So Funny I Forgot to Laugh," but it probably is.

With all the respect I owe you and more, if you had a problem with me, you could have and should have came directly to me and told me yourself and I would have tried to fix it and I wouldn't have felt as embarrassed or humiliated.

I'm one to talk, I left my own message on Scrooge200's wall and I just told TheAtomicLight about this because he's also an admin and he knows and understands me better than some other people do! So I probably just made this situation worse than I did and now I'm probably more to blame than you are!

Again, for what it's worth, I really am sorry I made you uncomfortable, if i upset you, and if I annoyed you, I really, really did not mean to, and I'm sorry if this note didn't make you feel any better or makes me look bad. You're not the first person to have problems with me and unfortunately you won't be the last either, this is gonna keep happening until I'm dead and gone!

Please don't misunderstand me. And next time you have a problem with me, please come to me, I don't bite! I'm sensitive but I'm not a rabid dog.

But if you want nothing to do with me and want me not to talk to you anymore, I won't and I'll understand. In fact, I won't leave replies to any of your comments and I won't talk to you unless you talk to me first, and I'll try not to talk to you or about you when we comment on the same thing, including on someone else's comment, even if I agree with you. But I won't bother you anymore.

Thanks for your time and I seriously hope you try to have a wonderful kind of day. Take care! 