Thread:Thedarkb1/@comment-24669562-20160422000727

I'm not saying this to cause any trouble, although I probably am and I'm not meaning to, but I was blocked from Locomotive WIkia for "encouraging confrontation." I'm also not saying this to get back at AltoonaRailfan and I don't want you to try to confront him either.

I was not trying to encourage a confrontation. All I did was, well, it's like this. I saw that Corbin, HenryDuckFan was back, or so it seemed because a few days ago he left a comment on something I said on http://locomotive.wikia.com/wiki/EMD_F125#comm-17099, it's nothing wrong but don't take my word for it.

I was under the impression that his ban was lifted and I left this message saying "You're Back?" on HenryDuckFan's wall. http://locomotive.wikia.com/wiki/Message_Wall:HenryDuckFan

Maybe this is my fault, I mean I'm not sure exactly what I did wrong. But I wrote this message and was banned on the spot of encouraging a confrontation. I would NEVER do that! Maybe I said some things I should not have said and I'll admit I've been guilty of that before but I was NOT trying to start a confrontation or encourage one. All I said was "Can we please all get along?" I mean I am a lover of peace, and I've said the following before on Deviant Art, on Fanfiction.net, and just about other websites I've been on, I don't like to fight or argue with anyone, it's not worth my time, energy, dignity, or integrity. I mean I know I'm not going to get along with everyone on the internet and not everyone is going to get along with me, oh man is that the truth!

I admit I did use the word "Aspie" but I used it on myself since I have Apserger's myself, although I feel "aspie" is dirogatory and I shouldn't use that word, in fact I don't call anybody an aspie except myself. And I admit I did say I wanted limited contact and social interaction with all members. Maybe that was one of the reasons I got banned. Well not just that but possibly by saying "Aspie," saying "Can we please get along?" and "butt-insky" which is another word for busybody, which I guess I was. I probaby said more than I should have.

All I wanted was for HenryDuckFan and the others on Locomotive WIki to get along since he was back,I mean I didn't like any of the fighting there and I still don't, but I guess it didn't translate well and my message was taken as an encouragement for confrontation, and that was so not my intent. I admit I did mess up on that website by adding a page that didn't need to be there, that being this:  http://locomotive.wikia.com/wiki/Tier_4_(For_Passenger_Trains) And I do admit I can take things the wrong way myself and not all things translate well with me even if it wasn't meant just to hurt me but something I needed to hear.

I did try talking to AltoonaRailfan about this but I cannot albeit he is an admin.

But it doesn't matter, I'm not sure that Wikia is for me, not because I was banned.

I will not say anything bad about anyone, not HenryDuckFan, not AltoonaRailfan, not anyone, talking trash about other people is not my thing and not the answer although I am taken aback by this ban and am a little upset but I'm not that upset. Maybe I deserved the ban or maybe I got railroaded, no pun intended, and parts of me think I was railroaded, I just don't know.

Like another member told me, if you don't want to be bothered with me anymore, it's cool, or something like that. I'm not a very easy person to get along with, I can be trouble though I don't mean to be, and I'm not very popular, nor do I want to be. I do want respect, although I know I will not get that from everyone, not now not ever, but I don't need to be famous or liked by everyone. But all I ask is for respect and that's it, no sympathy, just respect.

And again (for anyone reading this) please do not try to attack or confront AltoonaRailfan. I don't know him or what his intentions are, I cannot read his mind or heart, but please do not attack AltoonaRailfan for any reason, not even on my behalf, I am absolutely not trying to start a war with anyone or turn anyone against anyone, and I hope but will not expect you'll believe me. Instead I'll just pray for him and others.

Like I said, if you don't want to talk to me anymore, I will respect your decision.

Best wishes and peace. :) 